Random writings

 Boredom/brain spill  I lay in bed  A pillow beneath my head I think of tons of things I could do,  But instead I lay here writing to you.  The boredom has seeped in deep I lay here like a large heep.  I want to do something Not waste my time thinking I want to start a leaf collection I want to make and eat new dishes With no hesitation. I want to fulfill some of my wishes.  I want to finish my puzzle, Sketch out my tree and make a double,  I want to to decorate my room And maybe clean up with an actual broom I want to declutter my head most I feel like it's a loud painful party And I can't find the evil host I want to lave behind any unnecessary anxiety  And finally live a quiet life Instead my head is full of noise With thoughts of my poor social life (no girls, just boys)  My overflowing mind spills out the forbidden And although I want to be a happy man I always stay inside, hidden.  I want to learn history of all my ancestry, I...

I don't talk about my bar mitzvah. It was an awful experience that embarrasses me and I'm sure it will stick in my families heads fkr ever. We won't let my younger go through what I went.   I know I'm only 15, and all my complaints may seem ridiculous, but whatever. Nobody will ever read through all of this because most people are selfish and only care for themselves. That's not a bad thing, that's how people are. They don't REALLY care about what other people think, they're just being nice, and that's ok. I voiced my opinion on this subject to my sister once and she thought me crazy for thinking so. But I speak with many people and I see how they react. They black out while you speak and when they finally get the chance to speak the awake not remembering a work that was said.  Usually they just want to say their bit in the conversation and don't really listen to what you're saying, just bits and parts. They don't want to hear about other...